LITTLE CROOKED WING
by Daniela Miller
While the baby angel known in Heaven as little crooked wing was standing at the gates of heaven, watching the new Angels coming home to meet God; she wondered why some of the new Angels had the tip of their wing crooked and why some had perfect wings. She had been in Heaven for 2 months and still the tip of her wing was crooked! Oh well, she said to herself as she went over to meet some of the new Angels.
She liked it in Heaven, there was so much to do: playing jump the clouds, flying around to meet everyone and sleeping on the stars. Every day was different in Heaven, there was always new people to meet and new games to play, full of happiness, love and joy. Little crooked wing was as happy as she could be and had more friends than she could count. While she and her friends were playing jump the clouds, one of the newer Angels stood up and all of a sudden his crooked wing became a beautiful perfect wing! She looked at the tip of her wing where it was crooked and knew one day that hers would be perfect too.
Once in a while she would look towards Earth and wonder how her Mother was doing, but God had told her that he would watch over her mother just like he was doing with little broken wing. That night, as she looked for a star to sleep on, she saw 4 new Angels come in; all with perfect wings. She decided that she would go talk to God and see why her wing was still crooked, and why some Angels came with perfect wings and others were there for a few days, or weeks and their wings would all of a sudden become perfect. Little crooked wing found her star and snuggled down to get some rest, knowing that she would get her answer tomorrow.
The next morning little crooked wing woke up and saw that the other Angels had already started playing the game “jump the clouds” so she hurried to play, forgetting what she was going to ask God for the time being. Later that afternoon, she was welcoming the new Angels; when again the thought crossed her mind about her crooked wing, so she went to God to ask him when would her wing be perfect.
God put little crooked wing on his lap and said `My little Angel, when I call the Angels home, some know that it is their time so they are happy to be here. Their families know that they are going to heaven; and although they love and grieve for their child, they are able to let them come to me. That is why they get perfect wings, the ones you see that have to wait for their wings to become perfect are the ones that it takes their family time to know and understand their grief and realize that they are with me, in heaven where everything is perfect, and can let them go. So that is why it takes them time to get their perfect wings.


Little crooked wing then said `but God I have been here over 2 months and the tip on my wing is still crooked, why is that? God took her hand and said “Come with me my Angel and I will show you, but we will have to go to Earth.” God took little crooked wing to where she lived with her earthly family. At the cemetery, by crooked little wings headstone, was her Mother, sobbing and talking to God, asking him to give her back her baby. She was telling God that she could not live without her and that she could not let her go, that she needed her baby back. Crooked little wing asked God why her Mother was so sad and God explained that her Mother missed her and wanted her home. Then he explained to her that her Mother wanted little crooked wing home so bad that she was keeping a part of little crooked wing there with her; that is why her wing was not perfect. “You see”, God said, “it is hard for anyone to know what heaven is like until they come there; and, some people, after losing a loved one just do not want to let go. In time, most people let go and know that their Angels are happy in heaven and that I will watch over them forever. I tried to tell your Mother that you are okay and that I will watch and take care of you until I call her home, but her heart aches for you too much and she can`t hear me.
Little crooked wing told God she understood and as they flew back to heaven little crooked wing turned her head and looked at her Mother knowing she had to do something to help her. Later on that night, when some of the angels were sleeping, and others were playing, little crooked wing flew back to Earth. She did not know what to do, but she knew she had to do something to help her grieving Mother. She slipped quietly into the bedroom where her Mother laid sleeping, and flew just above her. Her Mother stirred restlessly; and, as she did, little crooked wing saw a tiny tear come out of her Mothers eye.
Little crooked wing gave her Mother a soft kiss on her cheek and not knowing if she could hear her or not she said “ Mommy, I wish you could see heaven! I am so happy there, there is love everywhere. I know that you miss me, but know God is taking care of me. I see you cry for me but I want you to know that I see you every day and love you so much. You love me so much it is hard for you to let me go, but I will always be in your heart. God said I will always be your little girl, but I am your little girl in heaven now. I love you always, Mommy.” Saying that, little crooked wing gave her Mother another kiss on her cheek and turned and flew back to heaven.
When little crooked wing got back to heaven she found a bright star to sleep on.
The next morning little crooked wing went back to God and told him what she had done the night before, and asked God if her mother could hear what she had said. God said, “Little crooked wing, if her heart is open and she was dreaming of you, yes she heard every word you said.” Little crooked wing was so happy and went to play, thinking the whole time that maybe she had helped her Mother. She played all day, made more friends, and just laughed and had a good time.


Later on that afternoon, she heard God calling, “Little crooked wing come, I have something to show you.” Little crooked wing went to God and he put her on his lap. He told her that her earthly Mother had heard what she had said the night before. God pointed down to earth into little crooked wings’ earthly house and said, “My little Angel hear what your Mother is saying.” Little crooked wing looked down and saw her Mother at the table crying, with her hands clasped together. Heavy sobs shook her mothers body as she said, “ God I give you my daughter to love, please take care of her and always tell her that her Mommy loves her so’ but, I know she is in heaven with you and that I can keep her in my heart forever. God give her a kiss for me if you can, and tell her I will always miss her but I do know that she is with you now.
Little crooked wing was so happy that her Mother had heard her that she did not realize what had happened until God said, “Little crooked wing, look at your wing.” Little crooked wing looked at her wing and saw it was not crooked anymore, she had the most beautiful wings she had ever seen! She stared at them for a minute until another angel said, “Hey little crooked wing, you want to play?” Little crooked wing looked at all the other angels around her and said with a smile that lit up the heavens, “my name is not little crooked wing anymore, my name is Carolyn!” Carolyn was going to go play with the other angels with her beautiful wings when God called her over, bent down and kissed her on the cheek saying, “This kiss comes from your Mother, now go play my little Angel.”
Carolyn made her wings go as wide and tall as she could, then flew off to play.

Copyright
Daniela Miller
May 31, 2008


This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Carolyn Miller who was born in Germany on March 06, 1975 and passed away on May 25, 1975 . We will remember her forever.






If you would like to get to know Carolyn more... Please also visit her other memorial website
http://carolyn-miller.virtual-memorials.com/

God bless you all for lighting a candle for my Daughter



              
Carolyns Angel Day        

From her Mother, Daniela:

     My SIDS Angel

God sent me an Angel, but just for a little while, and I want to tell the world about her.

 Carolyns Jesus Statue  

 Carolyn Dawn Miller was born on March 6th, 1975, a perfect beautiful healthy 6 lbs 11 oz. She was born at 2:36 in the morning. She was perfection, that I never knew existed. From the time we got her home her personality showed. She was most happy in her swing where she could watch me work, or in her stroller when we went for walks. She never missed anything, the world didn`t pass her by, she passed the world by, she saw everything.
     She had her moods, when she wanted to be held she would let me know, but she was such a good baby. When she smiled, you could see the stars in her eyes and the sun in her smile, and she smiled a lot.





        I have a son who is 5 years older than Carolyn, and had many dreams about my first and only girl. I knew her first word would be mama, cause I said that to her so many times. I couldn`t wait for her to take her first step to me, and watch her grow. I knew we would be close and wanted to be there when she fell, to pick her up and tell her it is ok, mama is here.

Going shopping together, starting school, her first date, and her wedding, I looked foward to all this with my baby girl.
 

   

     

My Talk With God

I said `God I miss My Daughter
He replied, yes I know
God I said, is she happy with you
God said, she sits next to me every day

God, I cry and need her back, I said
God said, Heaven needed her more
Then why God did you give her to me
just to take her back?
God said, she showed you love and caring
That will stay in your heart forever

God I said, I don`t understand
God said, you will understand when you see her again
when I call you home she will be waiting for you at the gate
You will be together for eternity

God, one last question
Does she know how much I love her
She sees you every day and feels what is in your heart
She loves you to, as do I

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She also has a very special stepfather, who has helped me to get her move here from a military cemetery to a private one, to the place where we will all be together on this earth. And she would be very proud of her brothers, one of whom has graduated from the military academy this year.                                 
           




This website was built by 2 special women, both have lost their Angels to SIDS, but in their grief they have helped me built and draw a special site for my Angel.
God bless you Donna and Danielle

 

   But God had other plans for her, on May 25th, 1975 he called her home as she slept. I use to ask him why? Why my baby? But I know I will never get that answer. God has his reasons. I miss her so much, even though it`s been many years. I have adjusted myself to the fact that I will see my Angel again when God calls me home.